What are we doing?

I cannot put into words how lazy I have been for the past year. By lazy I am referring to my relationship with God. It is easy for me to get annoyed with people, or frustrated that they are not being perfect. I am far from perfect. & I have no right to be annoyed with anyone. Have a forgotten what God has done for me? How selfish have I become? Why am I standing still in my faith? The Creator of life, of EVERYTHING, not only provides for us but loves us more than we could ever love. Jesus put Himself last. He did not live in a mansion (he didn't have to come to this corrupt world in the first place), he did not boast about how perfect he was, he did not say he deserved anything- when he deserved everything! He put us first...our filthy sin put Him on the cross. Jesus had a choice to be on that cross. He did not have to come to this world, he could have avoided the cross in many miraculous ways. But He chose to save us....we are nothing, but he loves us. More than we could ever love.  Have you ever sat back and put yourself in Jesus's position? Not only was he NAILED to the cross, and brutally crucified, but he was also mocked during his whole lifetime. Jesus is the Son of God, yet people accused him of lying. People mocked, ridiculed, and laughed in his face...never once did he kill them, but he reacted in love. Jesus had the hardest life out of anyone who has lived. And He chose to live it, all for us. His resurrection saved us, He beat death. How selfish can we be by forgetting this? All of the "why" questions or pity me stories have to stop. Life on earth is going to end, thanks to Jesus we can have the gift of eternal life.  I am not on a spiritual high right now, I am far from "feeling" uplifted. But I have joy. Happiness is a temporary feeling, joy is an eternal promise. I have joy knowing that I have a Savior who I do not deserve. I have joy knowing that His blood covers my disgusting sin, and that I can have eternal life by following Him. Jesus has given us a free gift. An eternal gift. The best gift possible....for free. I will not base my relationship with God on emotion....emotions can change, and the Devil can have complete control over them. Just because I do not feel "happiness" right now does not mean I am far from God. We cannot base our spiritual life on physical emotions. But we can have joy in all circumstances. Therefore rejoice in your trials. May Christ's church come together as one, and move towards spreading God's word. It is all we are called to do. Life on earth is only a dash in our lifetime, so why not focus on eternity?