One of them days

I've always been the person to say, "get over it." 

The older I get, the more I realize that by saying, "get over it," I'm actually just ignoring the problem. 

I've messed up in the past, I have my mistakes, I try not to upset people, I try not to get upset. 

The truth is....I can drive myself crazy always trying to please everyone. 

I should not let my past interfere with my present.

I should not worry about anything, after all....I do say I follow in Christ. 

I use to be against serious relationships, and I ignored falling for people. 

But maybe that's my problem. Maybe I need to let myself fall. 

I shouldn't be hesitant to fall, because I am capable of picking myself up. 

I don't need anyone to pick me up, so why am I hesitant to fall? 

I always use to promote "fun" relationships, with no serious talks or emotions.

But maybe I want to be loved, and to fall in love. 

You can't help falling in love,  I've done it, and I'm finally going to admit it. 

I'm not going to turn into a sappy girlfriend. 

I'm not going to let my past mess with my head.

Because what's meant to happen will happen. 

So I'm focusing on Christ, and being myself. 

I'm going to face my problems, and brush them off. 

Every girl would like the assurance that the guy they love will "catch" them...but I'm not going to worry about that. Because I can catch myself if I have to. (cheesy, but true). 

So I'm dropping my guard, and living for today. 

There's no reason to plan for tomorrow- I may not be here then. 

Today was a good day.

I'll end at that.